Beginnings.

Welcomed or not, new beginnings come. They can be painful, but we can choose to make them beautiful. We have a choice to either joyfully embrace them, or look at them as what comes after a failure has occurred. I had to make the choice recently. My mind was content with the second option, but my heart protested the thought. But before I totally dismissed my mind’s thoughts, I let the tears fall. I let my emotions be emotions. (I’m a girl… it happens). But then I listened to my heart. I wiped my tears, and lifted my eyes. I chose to not let my beginning start with anything less than my best. I choose to be eager for what lies ahead.

I still have no clue what this new beginning holds for me. But I do know that I am going to embrace what is ahead, and joyfully so.

I am going to make whatever is ahead– beautiful. 

Advertisements

It was broken, it was scared, it was hopeful, it was Beautiful.

Yesterday during worship I physically watched the face of a human transform into the face of my Father. It was broken, it was scared, it was hopeful, it was Beautiful.

Through her, he showed me his heart. He showed me how his heart is broken for us, hopeful for us, and SO beautiful.  I was truly wrecked. He then said to me today, “Welcome to my heart Maddie, welcome to my heart. I’ve been waiting for you.” Talk about crying. To hear Him say to me “I’ve been waiting for you,” was the most beautiful and most humbling thing I have ever heard. Me? He’s been waiting for me? YES– He’s waiting for all His children to experience and feel his tangible love and affection for each of us.

In seeing the Father’s heart in a human showed me how real, how genuine, how loving he is towards each one of us. It made me realize how much thought, how much time, and how much grace he had when he thought about every one of his loves.

So don’t miss these precious moments. Don’t be too busy to miss the moments he shows himself to you through your brothers and sisters. I almost missed mine and man, I am glad I didn’t.

“I am your best resource” – Jesus

“When you’re tired, come rest on me.

When you’re angry, come vent to me.

When you’re hurt, come cry to me.

When you’re happy, come running to me.

When you feel like you can’t possibly go on anymore, come feel my heartbeat and become one with it.

When you’ve forgotten who you are, come ask me to remind you.

I know life can be hard. That’s why I made sure you didn’t have to do it alone. That’s why I made Koinonia. Look around you– there’s so many people who care about you… not to mention my affection for you.

I want you to talk to me. I want to spend time with you. I want to be a part of your everyday. So please, my favorite one, don’t forget the one who created you. Don’t forget that I am here. I love you more then you will ever know.

You biggest fan,

Jesus”

Koinonia

Koinonia.

This word has been popping up everywhere lately. My advice- embrace it, learn it, live it. It’s not going to go away.

It’s the culture that the Father has always longed for and dreamed of.

It’s the culture of relationship and love. In this culture when you succeed, we celebrate with you. When you mess up, we draw closer to you and remind you who you are. We love together, we laugh together, and we cry together. We experience the power and the beauty of the Lord’s love for us together. We grow together. It’s the culture of family.

The first time I truly experienced this culture was a year ago when I made my first trip to Ukraine. I had known love and been showed love– but never like this. I was so baffled by how these crazy Ukrainians who had literally just met me, loved me so much. I thought, “They don’t even know me”.

Then I discovered that they saw Jesus in me, and that they loved me for me. They didn’t love me for a song that I sang, or a word that I spoke. They loved me because I was me. Those crazy Ukrainians taught me how to love with no limitations, and I am so grateful that they did.

Now that I have experienced this love, I want no one left out. I want everyone to experience the love I did. And the best part is.. you don’t have to go to Ukraine to experience it.

This culture is going to spread. It’s going to change to world. It’s going to release a love into the world that nobody can explain, something that no one can even deny. And I’m going to release that love.

Let’s not hold it back any longer, the world is ready for it. They’re crying out for it without even knowing it.

I’m so honored to be able to know His love like this, and I can’t wait to discover more. Let’s do it together… in Koinonia.

My sweet one.

Come rest in my lap. Come and weep in my arms. I will sweep you off your feet with my love for you. And we will dance… like you have never danced before. Come, I will sing you a lullaby… one that I wrote just for you. All your worries and fears will fade away.

My daughter do you trust me? For I am your creator and I work all things for good.

Don’t worry my sweet one. I don’t like to see you hurting. Every tear you cry, I catch in my hand. I’m here my dear. I’m right here.

I know how many hairs are on that beautiful head. I know every crazy dream of yours. I count each delicate breath you take. Why? Because I’m amazed by you. I’m amazed by your faithfulness, your zeal for life, your love for the broken. I’m so proud, so honored to call you mine.

It’s okay, you can go. You can go and venture out and try to find your own way. Just know that I will always be here whenever you need to be reminded how much I cherish you. My arms will always be open to you, my feet– always ready for a dance, my voice– always ready to sing your song.

So please my sweet one, don’t run anymore. Just rest. Come abide in my love for you.

My time.

Being the daughter of leaders, I always thought that I would be my parents right hand girl. Until now. I’ve finally realized that I can impact the world as much as, if not more than my parents.

Already in 2015 I’ve had several people come to me saying that this is my year, this is the year i’m going to EXPLODE. And I thought they were all crazy. I wanted to say “I think you have the wrong person”. Until today. I realized that no.. They were right. This is my year.

I realized that I honor my father and mother more when I finally realize and start walking in who I am, not following in their footprints.

Their desire for me is to surpass them and build upon what they have laid within  me.

So now I’m going to start seeking out and acting on opportunities that come my way. I will not let them pass me by.

I am a beautiful, crazy loved Queen.

He calls me beautiful, he calls me worthy, he calls me loved. So that’s what I am.

He says to me: “How beautiful you are, my darling,                
How beautiful you are!…” Song of Solomon 1:15

The first step is realizing and recognizing that I am a daughter of the king, the next step… Living it.

It’s one thing to call yourself a queen, it’s another thing to actually walk and live as one.

A queen doesn’t seek attention, she knows she is beautiful and rests in that. She doesn’t question if people love or accept her, she rests in the fact that her Father loves her, and for her- that’s enough. She doesn’t have to prove herself to anyone, her father already trusts and believes in who she is.

A queen’s father listens when she speaks, because mighty power and beautiful healing come out of her mouth. She grabs the kings attention without even trying. Her, simply walking as who she is, a queen, brings a proud Father to tears. He rejoices in the fact that she has finally realized something that he has known all along.

So it’s time to call out and respond to the king and queen in you.

How will you respond? I choose to respond with “I am yours Father. Your beloved, faithful, worthy daughter.”

I’m Coming Out of Hiding.

I’m free falling into the arms of my love. He’s been calling me, reaching for me. Now.. I’m ready to respond.

I’m ready to let go of my reputation and my past knowledge of You and let YOU teach me about You. I want to relearn You. Relearn Your heart. I am ready to dive into Your ocean of endless grace and affection.

I know that I will be safe in Your arms. I’m not even scared. I know that You have my back. I know that You hold my heart so close to Yours.

I don’t want to go a day without smelling the scent of You, talking about Your beauty, or resting in Your presence. I’m all in now.

Thank you for being such a faithful friend. You have been waiting for me to get to this point. You haven’t given up your pursuit for me, for my heart. Thank you.

I won’t wait another day to spread You. I won’t hold You back any longer.

Here He comes out of me world.. I hope you’re ready.

I’m gonna spread His Love

We need to show the world who we are crazy about, who we love, who we adore. We need to show the world how much we love our father. Us showing the world our crazy passionate love for him will stir something in them. It will shake their souls, their spirits. Our love for our father will shake nations, change nations.

So rise up sons, rise up daughters. Let’s show the world with all we have how much we love him.

Let’s show them by how we walk. How we talk. How we love one another. Let’s show this love with every bone in our bodies.

Let’s explode with praise for our father. I want everyone to know how much the father loves them because of me. Because of the hug I give them, because of the word I give them. I want to be the reason the world knows his love.